Call it hormonal, call it having too much time on my hands (5 weeks off from work!), but today I engaged in a self-pity party regarding baby's late arrival! Again, I think it stems from this emphasis we make on the 'due date'. And in reality, first time mothers and many other women do not delivery on time. But it still doesn't stop me from feeling inadequate. I feel like something is wrong with me, like my body doesn't know how to delivery a baby the proper way! I know it's silly but I still feel that way.
I also feel frustrated because I feel like I've been such a good sport these past 10 months! (yes its been 10 months for me). I guess I felt like I would get some sort of 'pregnancy karma' or early pass for having such a good attitude. I walk twice a day for 20-30 minutes, eat good, and follow Dr's orders. Other friends and family I know that were pregnant recently bitched and moaned half the pregnancy and about possible being induced. Turns out, NONE of them delivered as late as me and none were induced! And I am both :( I know the end result is hopefully a healthy, happy baby boy. And that is truly all that matters in the end, I know that. Like I said, I have been good this whole time and I just felt like having a tantrum I guess!
ANYWAY, enough with the whining! One thing that has made me feel better lately though is knitting! I am in a knitting club with my friends and coworkers. We meet every other Friday and just work on projects, drink wine(well not me yet) and chit chat. My dad taught me to knit years ago, but I only knew one stitch and was curious to learn more. It has been so great to learn from others firsthand new stitches and ideas! I can't wait to make baby Mark stuff and blankets for my friend's babies! Here is a pic of a scarf I just finished, modeled by Miss Bella: 
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